Is it Giving Up or Letting Go?

It’s all about control isn’t it. We often feel the need to have a handle on everything in our surroundings.

For the past 6 weeks I have been doing an on-line course in javascript web design. I don’t think I have ever taken a harder course. It requires that I spend hours every night reading and trying out various formulas to make the page run properly. I am a perfectionist, there I said it. When I do something I don’t do it half-assed. I got 8 out of 8 on the first assignment but the 2nd quiz I got 6 out of 20. What a blow to the ego that was. Then, of course, I just needed to try harder, read more and practice more.

I work full time all day, maintain a website, try to see and spend time with family and friends and now I am taking a course that take me hours every night. It’s no wonder I haven’t written in my blog. My house is also in need of a good cleaning. I was experiencing a constant sense of anxiety.

So I have decided to pull back the reigns and slow it all down. I am going to exit stage right and only concentrate on things that make me feel good.

I am also letting go of control. My website has taught me that everything can and will come to you in precisely the time that it should. I have had the opportunity to meet some of the most amazing people. I was taking the course to improve my skills so that the website could be better. I have learned that I do not have to be good or perfect at everything.

I am not giving up in fact I am opening up and allowing more to come to me without having to control it.

I believe I have learned my lesson; it may seem minor to others but allowing something to be incomplete is difficult for me.

I thank the Universe for the lesson.

Peace,

Kathy