As a finder I have discovered, that knowing that we all come from the same energy, our goal is to connect back to that energy. It seems kind of strange because it is not like we could ever be broken from that connection we have just forgotten that we are connected. Personally meditation seems to be the best way for me to make that connection. I am committing to meditate daily.

This year I feel my challenge is the concentrate on learning how to allow. To let go of the reins and allow life to happen. I realize that I do not need to nor do I actually control everything. We think we have to arrange, to plan, organize but really life is going to happen anyway. I think we can get in our own way. My challenge is to slow down and listen to my intuition, connect with our source energy and allow. We are all vessels of this energy and sometimes we are the dreamer and sometimes we are the dream.

Namaste,
Kathy

For the past 6 weeks I have been doing an on-line course in javascript web design. I don’t think I have ever taken a harder course. It requires that I spend hours every night reading and trying out various formulas to make the page run properly. I am a perfectionist, there I said it. When I do something I don’t do it half-assed. I got 8 out of 8 on the first assignment but the 2nd quiz I got 6 out of 20. What a blow to the ego that was. Then, of course, I just needed to try harder, read more and practice more.

I work full time all day, maintain a website, try to see and spend time with family and friends and now I am taking a course that take me hours every night. It’s no wonder I haven’t written in my blog. My house is also in need of a good cleaning. I was experiencing a constant sense of anxiety.

So I have decided to pull back the reigns and slow it all down. I am going to exit stage right and only concentrate on things that make me feel good.

I am also letting go of control. My website has taught me that everything can and will come to you in precisely the time that it should. I have had the opportunity to meet some of the most amazing people. I was taking the course to improve my skills so that the website could be better. I have learned that I do not have to be good or perfect at everything.

I am not giving up in fact I am opening up and allowing more to come to me without having to control it.

I believe I have learned my lesson; it may seem minor to others but allowing something to be incomplete is difficult for me.

I thank the Universe for the lesson.

Peace,

Kathy

I’ve managed to not allow my emotions to control me and tried not to effect others with those emotions. It has been an interesting test. At work I felt an overwhelming feeling of anxiety like a panic attack only very brief. I was overwhelmed due to the amount of work that I have to do and had the feeling that I will never get it done. I made myself relax and remember that everything always turns out okay and I was able to talk myself out of it. What was interesting was the energy in that feeling. It lasted only a few seconds but it was like electricity with alot of terror mixed in for good measure.

Our emotions can truly take us over if we let them. I could have went with that emotion and allowed it to swallow me up. Instead I choose to stop it and be in control.

On days 3 and 4 of the fast I experienced waves of emotion sometimes depression and sometimes anger. I discovered that this can be normal at the beginning of a fast when a body is detoxing. The Naturopath said it is unusual at the end of the fast. I told him that I had an MRI and they put dye in me during the fast he said that explains alot. The dye is toxic and it is probably what caused all the mood swings. So remember don’t fast when you are going to have an MRI with a dye injection. LOL Who knew?

I did find the 4 days of fasting interesting. I guess the fast adventure was more about controlling emotions than controlling my food intake. I am proud that I was able to control what felt in uncontrollable emotions. I credit the ability to be able to do this to meditation. Which reminds me there is a new session of free meditation course coming up in September in Niagara Falls. I took the course in 2007 and 08 and it did change my life. It can do the same for you. Think about it. You can control your emotions they don’t have to be in control.

Peace,
Kathy

This year, my 50th, we are going to Vegas. We being, me and 7 of my bestest friends. We have know each other most of your lives so we have wonderful rich histories together.

I think that it is important for women to get together with their friends. I feel so relaxed with them I don’t have to be someone that I am not, I don’t have to be in control, I don’t have to explain myself, I can just be. I know we will also laugh, alot.

We have been planning this for a few years and it is finally here. I know we will have an awesome time.

Vacation should be a time to replenish and this year that is just what I plan to do.

Viva Las Vegas

It was the perfect night and Heartland forest was the perfect venue. Lori opened the ceremony beautifully by calling on all directions and giving thanks. During the opening ceremony I felt amazing energy in my hands as I held them out. It was like a soft vibration.

The arrow breaking exercise in which we broke arrows on our neck helped initiate our daring natures. I accomplished that also and I have the arrow to prove it.

I think that the Firewalk workshop helped us demonstrate the true potential we have when we believe in ourselves. When we want to display this the Universe supports us by providing us with the methods. It is important that we believe in ourselves alone. I mean in a lonely sort of way because I am all that I have. It seems to me that once we decide to do that then the Universe provides us with the support to create that reality. Once we decide to tuly love and support ourselves in a lonely way the Universe opens up and says you are never alone.

I would like to thank Heather and Firewalk Niagara for assisting me in further realizing the power of me and the support that is available when we ask for it.

Peace,
Kathy

I know that it is so important to challenge yourself. On Saturday I will be attending the firewalk workshop at Heartland Forest. I am told this workshop is full but it is being offered monthly. You can contact Heather and sign up for the next one. She is located on the Spiritual Niagara website.

I am feeling a little nervous about it. I am wondering what my feet are going to look like afterwards. I am not really worried about pain. I do believe I can do it even though my friends think I am nuts.

I believe it is all about empowerment and we have to push ourselves to see what we are truly capable of. I guess I want to find out what I am capable of.

I am also looking forward to experiencing this with other spiritual people. It will be something that we will always have shared together and will connect us even though we don’t know each other.

Sometimes being spiritual is gut wrenching because you may have to unload some stuff in order to get rid of it, in order to grow.

So wish me luck Saturday. I will let you know how it turns out.
Keep pushing the envelope.
Peace,
Kathy

We know that we are all interconnected and there are times when we are making decisions, choices that will cause our lives to be focused in a certain direction and then times when we are the message for someone else. I think that by listening to our intuition we can make sure that we are dancing correctly and not “stepping on our partners toes” so to speak.

I think that life is not just about the decisions we make but also about our ability to hear the messages form others. We never know what way, shape or form those messages will take but we need to be awake to them when they arrive.

It reminds me of the story of the drowning man who felt that if he put his faith in God then he would be saved.

He was drowning in the ocean and a fishing boat tried to save him and the man said no I place my faith in God and God will save me. Another ship came upon him and attempted to help him and again he stated the same thing. A helicopter came along and tried to rescue the man and no the man said God will save me.

Well finally the man did drown and went to heaven and he asked God why he drowned when he had placed his faith in God. God said, “But I sent you 2 ships and a helicopter.”

We need to listen to those messages. We need to learn when we lead and when we follow. By allowing our hear, our intuition, our positive emotions to lead us we are sure to learn when to turn, when to dip and when to twirl.

Let’s dance, my friends!

Peace,
Kathy

We often feel while in the throes of a major problem, concern or event, that life has dealt us a raw deal. Why did this happen to me? I believe that we are not meant to know the answer to that, that is, not until it is time.

We need to learn to relax, watch, listen and learn. Everything does happen for a reason, our reason. What if the reason that your friend became angry with you which ultimately hurt your feelings was so that you would reach out to someone else and therefore develop a closer relationship with them?

What if the pain that is being displayed in someone else’s life is a lesson for you to be prepared for what’s to come in your life? We don’t have those answers now but we do have them when we truly watch and listen. We need to be aware of the lessons. We need to see the dance of life. Sometimes we are the dreamer and sometimes we are the dream.

Peace,
Kathy